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Okay now that I am totally depressed at the prospect of not getting to see Noel tonight I will continue on with this story. See Part 1 if you really even care about all the info.
What just happend here? Did I screw everything up? "WoW, good night Josh?" That's it? That's all she could say? We just kissed. An amazing kiss at that. And she just says good night. Maybe I scared her. I thought it's what she wanted. What we both wanted. I obviously don't know women as well as I think I do. The body is a truly special thing. Sense memory is amazing isn't it? Because right now I can still feel her lips on mine. My mouth tingles. I really wish she wasn't so far away at the other end of the bed. I turn around to face her. Her blond hair is falling around the pillow and covering her face. Her chest is rising and falling. I think she's finally asleep. Otherwise she's doing a hell of a good job at fakeing it to avoid talking to me. I on the other hand can't sleep at all. How could I? I'm looking at her. Donna. Donna, the girl who took over my office three years ago. Donna who organizes my life. Donna, who drives me crazy day in and day out with inane trivia and useless causes. And now she's Donna who makes me feel things I never felt before. I brush her hair away from her face. I can't help it. It's like a magnet. "I'm sorry Donnatella" I say it even though she's asleep. I also move closer towards her on the bed. Not close enough so that were touching but close enough that I don't feel as much of an ache from being away from her. The temperature really is dropping in this apartment though. I wonder if her heat is breaking. It's getting so that this blanket that we are sharing is barely enough. Donna must be getting cold too. Because she curls herself up in the blanket and slides further towards the middle where I happen to be laying. Well what the heck. She's alseep. What's she going to do? Kill me? She's cold. I'm cold. I'm really doing her a favor. I slide my arms around her so that my head rests just above hers. And her head settles nicely on my chest. She doesn't wake up. I actually have the sneaking suspicion she really is awake and is not protesting this at all. This is much better. It's a lot warmer sharing body heat. Before I know it my anxiety that I once had is fadeing away and actually begin to drift to sleep. ******************************************************************* Sunlight is starting to peak through the windows. Being in darkness for so long my eyes have a hard time adjusting. When my eyes finally open it all comes rushing back. The snow. The car. The bed. The kissing. It's like waking up with a hangover only there was no drinking. Right now Josh is snoring softly and he has his arm draped protecively around me. This is unbelievably nice. This is perfect. It's exactly how you imagine waking up with the person you love to be like. Did I say love? Well I meant...okay I meant love. I turn around in his arms so that I am facing him. He looks so peaceful. I hate to wake him. Well I guess he felt me staring because he opens his eyes. It's always a little disconcerting to wake up to someone staring directly into your eyes. "Donna!" He shrieks. "You scared the crap out of me!" "Sorry." I say sheepishly. "It's okay." He says quietly. A lot of emotions pass in his eyes. I think it's all coming rushing back for him too. I sympathize with him. "It's morning." I state the obvious. I should also point out that I have made no attempt at moving from his arms. "Yes, I think the daylight was my first clue." He smiles when he says this and my heart leaps in my chest. "Well I am going to the bathroom." I drag myself from the bed and from him. I swear he hangs on to my hand for a second but it's possible I only wish he did. "Okay." When I come out he's standing at the window. "Look at all that snow." I walk towards him and peak over his shoulder. "I haven't seen that much in years." I remark. "Me neither." This conversation is so pointless. It's basically us dancing around any real conversations we should be having. "It kinda makes you wish you were a kid again and could just enjoy the day sleigh riding and building snowmen." I say with a smile. He gets this expression on his face. I think he's contemplating kissing me again. I swear if he does I won't use the words "Wow" or "Good night". "Why can't we?" Did he just say that. "Excuse me?" I think I'm a little shocked. This is No fun Josh we're talking about right? "Why can't we do those things?" "Well?" Maybe because it's so unlike you and I'm worried your coming down with a fever. "We obviously can't go to work. The snow has finally stopped. Let's have some fun." He actually sounds really excited. "Josh you do understand that this would require us to go outside you know, In the cold." He doesn't strike me as the type of guy who plays out in the snow a lot so I just thought I clairify it for him. "I am aware of that." I was just checking. "Well..." I pretend to contemplate it long and hard. Truthfully, I think it is actually kind of a good idea and something I would have suggested, not Josh. "Okay." "Good. Let's get our coats. And Donna don't forget your gloves." His concern makes me smile. He notices it. "What?" "Nothing, let's go."
TBC.....................
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